There’s this awkward thing that happens when you host a big time-sensitive project (like a sale) on your site. You need to put your marketing cap on for a while, and do the project justice by talking about it a lot.
This isn’t actually painful, since you believe in what you’re selling. But in the flurry of a launch, there isn’t much room for sharing personal, unrelated introspections. And so at the end of it all, you may feel disconnected from your community.
I felt it last year during MPMH, and again this year. Not that I’m complaining. I’m really proud of the bundle we put together. This is more an observation.
I miss you guys. I feel like I need to catch you up on my life, and I want to hear about your lives.
To compound the problem, our TED talk was supposed to be released “on or before May 18,” but has been delayed due to uploading problems. In any case, I’ve spent all my waking hours recently preparing outreach emails, newsletters, and blog posts for that. Publishing this post today may in fact be a horrible idea, since the talk could literally come out in 5 minutes.
But I couldn’t resist. I needed to touch base with my peeps.
I will keep it short though, since it will hopefully be TED time extraordinarily soon. Here’s the quick and dirty update on my life:
- Two months ago, I took a hiatus from my quest to fly to Chicago. My partner was finishing up grad school there, and had sustained a spinal injury. Leaving the wilderness to go help out was really a no-brainer. Being there for her felt like one of the most important things I’ve ever done.
- After a few bad roommate situations and friend miscommunications in recent months, I’ve been making an effort to be more up-front and communicative with the people in my life. However, I’ve learned that even when I push myself to be brave and do “the right thing,” (i.e. communicate openly), people may react poorly. I’m working on letting people’s reactions be their own, on letting things go, and on letting people have poor opinions of me if necessary. I’m finding this very hard.
- I just moved back to Portland and Valerie will be here in a few days (she did graduate, despite the injury!). We’re subletting a place in North Portland for the summer, and though I will certainly take some camping trips this summer, I’ve been grappling with the realization that I may not want to live in my trailer any longer, or even really continue the quest right now… This makes me feel pretty ashamed. But I’m craving stability, and I kind of just want to live with my girlfriend in the city that I love. It’s been so long. Still thinking this one over.
- I’m nervous about the TED talk coming out. I want it to go completely viral and help people all over the world who feel lost and anxious about having multiple passions. At the same time, the attention this could bring is a little terrifying. There will no doubt be criticism along with the praise. It’s to be expected, part of playing a bigger game. But again this goes back to letting other people’s opinions be their own.
That may not have been so “quick and dirty” after all, but I feel much better having shared it all with you.
What’s new with you?
Before all of the TED madness begins (which again, could literally be in 5 minutes), post a comment and tell me what you’ve been working on, either project-wise or personally. I would love to hear from you.