I’ve been out of commission for the last couple of days.
I always need some time to collapse emotionally after a massive project ends. After a few days of feeling lost, dodging emails, and trying unsuccessfully to be productive (which is hard for me), I’m starting to feel like myself again.
Since you’ve all been asking, my seminar on Tuesday went very well. We had an overbooked room, mostly made up of college students and recent grads, which was exactly the audience that I was hoping would turn up. It was exillerating, standing up there, seeing sparks of inspiration in their gaze, watching them scribble down my words, and hearing laughter at the right spots.
This was my first attempt at serious public speaking—and this is after 21 years of schooling, during which time I NEVER raised my hand, and was absolutely petrified of being called upon.
The Quiet Girl was a label that was given to me when I was about eleven. I internalized it, making it true for myself for so many years. It was only in my last year of law school, nearly fifteen years later, that I began questioning this mythology I held about myself.
Was I only the Quiet Girl because I believed myself to be? There was only one way to know for sure. I began raising my hand. Bit by bit, it got easier.
All to say that my new add-on career as a public speaker feels important. It’s not just that I have a message that I believe needs to be shared, I’m proving something to myself here…
What mythologies did you use to hold about yourself, and how did you disprove them?