There’s a soccer ball rolling around in my head. That’s how it feels. Or that’s how it would feel if a soccer ball were small enough to fit in my head. The ball tilts and bumps against the inside of my skull.
The brain fog’s been bad these last few weeks. Mostly in the morning.
Click-click-click. The puppy chews on her antler toy. I’m both annoyed at the distraction and grateful that she’s occupied and not detaching the baseboards from the wall…
I’m in a weird place. I spent the last four months working on Multi-Passionate Must-Haves, which just ended. The last month has been filled with many small challenges and expenses, topped off by a family tragedy that I’m not going to go into. (Don’t worry, I’m okay.)
It’s been rocky but I feel like I’ve finally made it through. I’m ready to say goodbye to one season and welcome in another.
The thing is…what do I do with my time now? Do I finally review my corporate tax return that my accountant sent me? Do I take some time off to practice self-care? Do I schedule a consultation with my naturopath? Do I finally finish editing the collection of poetry that the puttypeep submitted months ago? Do I get back into screenwriting and pull out my pilot script? My heart has been aching to do that.
Yes, to all of it. Yes.
But where do I start? It’s really easy to know what to focus on when you have a massive project with a deadline and several urgent life situations you need to respond to. Last week, it was clear how to spend my time. This week? Not so much.
I could schedule my week out in detail to make sure I fit everything in. Or–and I think this is the right approach–I could go with the flow for a while, go easy on myself, and have low expectations. If I want to blow off a morning of work to go swimming in the ocean, I can do that (so freaking grateful that that is even an option!).
Maybe what I need is some kind of combo of a bit of structure each day, along with large chunks of free time and lots of leeway for messing with all of it.
I’m curious how you deal with the end of a big project/challenging season in your life. Do you get organized right away and jump into new projects? Or do you let things flow more naturally and see where they go? Let me know in the comments!
Finally, it’s good to be back. Whenever MPMH comes around, I have to morph into promo mode. I try to do that in an authentic way. I was really proud of the bundle this year, so it wasn’t hard. But it still takes a bit of a tole. I miss writing about whatever I want to write about and connecting and being vulnerable. So here we are. I’m back and looking forward to catching up with you guys and hearing about what you’re up to. Please, share your experiences in the comments!